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University makes me anxious and that is not alright.

The thought of how much debt I'm going to be in when I graduate makes me anxious.
The thought of am I even going to pass my modules next year makes me anxious
Am I going to even make it to graduation?
The social side of uni makes me anxious.

All of these things make me anxious but I am determined to not let my anxiety ruin this experience for me, this experience which I've worked so hard for. I have wanted to go university for years but now I am here and have just finished my first year, my anxiety is ruining it and I want to be able to enjoy my time here. I am determined to not let my anxiety ruin this for me. I will work hard this year, and even if I do not get the grades I need to pass, all that matters is that I've tried my best. I need to learn to take things one day at a time and to not get so caught up in the future that I forget about the present.

Summer is fast approaching, and for some it has already started! Here are my tips to avoid getting bored this summer!

1) Get a summer job
Not only will this get you out of the house but you'll be earning money too! A summer job is great for building up your CV and you may even make friends whilst doing it. Good places to look include ice-cream shops, local holiday parks or leisure centres, bars, cafes and restaurants, and retailers such as Primark, Argos or your local supermarket.

2) Volunteer
Similarly, this one will also help boost your CV! This looks great to future employers and there are a multitude of places to volunteer at according to your interests! I'm planning to volunteer at my local museum but you could volunteer at a hospital, animal centre, youth club, library etc!

3) Start a blog
Starting a blog is great as it gives you a creative outlet and a place to share your thoughts. It will also help you develop your writing skills whilst documenting aspects of your life that you want to share.

4) Start a Youtube channel
This is similar to the blog one. If you struggle with writing or just prefer to talk or share visual creations then this is another great idea and can help improve your communication skills whilst making friends. I have a Youtube channel and because of it I have gained confidence and made some great friends.

5) Educate yourself
Whether this be through taking a course, visiting a museum/gallery, watching documentaries or reading a book, educating yourself is so important. You are never going to have a summer as long as you do as a teenager/young adult, so make the most of it and use this time to expand your knowledge on a subject you find interesting!

I finished my first year at university this week and I have mixed feelings. I feel happy, sad, anxious, relieved, overwhelmed and underwhelmed.


I remember a year ago getting really anxious about my A Levels and expecting not to get the grades to uni, and here I am a year later, just finishing my first year at my first choice uni! I've made amazing friends (although it took while for that to happen), made some lovely memories, and learnt about some of my favourite topics. It is important to note that whilst most of my time has been great, there have of course also been so not great so great moments and I'm currently working on another post about the truth of uni so look out for that!

So I moved into my halls on 18th September 2016 where I first met my flatmates (and I'm now living with 3 of them next year). On the first night we went for a walk around the city to get used to it and I then spent the rest of the night crying alone in my room as I was so overwhelmed by the new experience. My flatmates and I then spent the first week going to different events such as Freshtival (a music festival style night at the SU) and a ghost tour (which was more of a history tour). I am studying History along with one of my flatmates, Amy, and in the first week we both did a treasure hunt for our course where we made some more friends and also got lost. We also dragged my boyfriend, Simon, along as he also goes to our uni although he studies Accounting and Finance.

When the university season fully started with lectures things got more intense as the workload slowly increased and I made the mistake of leaving 2 essays until 4 days before the due date (although I did get my highest grades on them haha).

I have grown and changed so much this year and honestly, I wouldn't change the ups and the downs for the world. I'm proud of who I've become and who I am becoming thanks to my university.

I'm worried about the future, but that is alright.

Since I started my A levels three years ago I've been having large periods of time where I'm just anxious about everything and worry about stuff that I don't need to worry about. I'm now in university and to be honest, the worrying has gotten worse.

I worry about home life, university work, grades, graduating, money, getting a job, getting a mortgage (I'm 19, that will not happen for years), getting a car and a bunch of other stuff that involve not knowing what the future will hold.

I am 19 and in my first year of university so I have no need to be worrying about half of that! I need to remember that it is alright to not know what will happen and that things can change at a moments notice. Worrying means suffering twice or for no reason at all. Whilst I'm not very good at not worrying, I'm trying to work on it. Just know that if you are worrying about things that you are not alone and I hope things get better for you! <3

I'm almost at the end of my first year at university, and as such I have learnt a few tips when it comes to saving money.

1) Borrow books from the library
When you get given your reading list before you arrive, try and hold off from buying any books and wait and see if your university library has them. Most reading lists will have various sections ranging from essential to further reading. I know it is tempting to buy all of the books in the essential reading list but in my experience you probably won't actually need those books and if you do then your university will generally have multiple copies of it available to borrow along with a reference copy that has to stay in the library. Books can cost anywhere from £10 to hundreds of pounds so it is always better to try and save money by waiting and seeing if the library already has it!



2)Don't go out all the time
When you are surrounded by people and being invited to various events or nights out it is incredibly tempting to go out all the time! Whilst this is a great way to socialise, try not to go out all the time or to give yourself set days when you're allowed to go out. This way you aren't constantly spending money on travel, food, drink, cinema etc, and have time to do your assignments. If you do want to go out all the time try to limit it to just the first weeks of the semester and then maybe go out once or twice a week or do activities where you don't need to spend a lot of money like a movie night at home or visiting a museum.

3) Don't get takeaways all the time
It can be tempting to just order in food all the time, especially in the first few days or if you aren't great at cooking, but this can make serious dents in your money. Try and limit yourself, having a takeaway as a treat after you've finished an assignment or as a once a week/fortnightly treat for getting through uni life. Plus you will appreciate the food so much more if you don't have it all of the time!

4) Charity shops
I know second hand things aren't everyone's cups of tea but you can find some real treasures in charity shops from clothes, to books, board games, to kitchenware! You can also find a lot of stuff in there that is brand new and was an unwanted gift for half the price of buying it from somewhere else!

5) Group meals
These aren't always viable but if they are then I recommend trying them! Create a list of meals that you and your flatmates like (or whoever it is you want to share meals with). Then all put in an equal amount of money to buy the food and give each other a set day to cook a meal. Not only will you save money as you'll all be buying the food and having more variety, but you'll also probably eat a lot healthier than if you weren't and eating and cooking with friends is so much more fun than doing it by yourself. My flatmates and I have roast dinners, chicken, pasta, jacket potatoes and much more for a fraction of the price if we were eating individually!

6) Write down lists
This is boring but it does help. Write down various lists from essentials to treats. Make sure you buy essentials like food and toilet roll etc and then once you've brought the essentials see how much you have left and if you can think you can afford it then treat yourself to something like a new top or makeup at the end of the month.

Hello! Sorry I have not blogged in a while but I am back now with my November Favourites!

My first favourite of this month is The Tales of Beedle the Bard by J K Rowling. It is a short fairytale book which includes 5 short stories. The stories have been written in the style of a fairytale and are written as something that would be read to young Wizards and Witches in the Wizarding World. It so cute and I absolutely love the stories. My favourite story is the story about the 3 brothers, the same as Dumbledore haha!



Keeping with the Harry Potter theme, my film favourite of the month is Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them. This follows the character of Newt who goes to New York with his suitcase full of magical creatures. Whilst in New York his creatures escape and he meets Tina, Jacob and Queen who help him. Newt is adorable and I love the friendship in this film! Also, the acting and plot line is superb!



For my clothing favourite I've actually been loving my Hufflepuff socks from Primark. Boring I know, but so cute and cosy!

I've also been loving my Harry Potter charm bracelet that my friend Zoe got me! The charms are so cute and sentimental to me!



For makeup I've been loving the Revolution Flawless 2 eyeshadow palette, particularly the pinks and browns in it as I'm a neutral girl who doesn't wear that much makeup. Plus if I mess up then nobody really notices!

My favourite perfume has been Wonderstruck Enchabtwd by Taylor Swift. I know it's a typical teenage girl perfume but it's perfect for winter as it's warm and slightly musky whilst also being girly!

In terms of tv shows I've been loving both Lucifer and Gilmore Girls. I've been watching Lucifer with my boyfriend and we've only just started season 2 but it is so good! I love the storyline although it can sometime be predictable. I've also recently started season 3 of Gilmore Girls and I love it! It is so cute and funny and I love the relationship between Loralie and Rory!



For music, I've really been enjoying 7 Years by Lukas Graham. I listened to it all throughout summer and I started listening again to it this month too!

Let me know what your favourites have been this month!